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Jul. 9th, 2009 | 12:03 am


Okay.

So is "And by the way...you had better get that hardware out of your face, Miss Katherine." slightly dick-ish to anyone else?

I went to an oral surgeon today to see about getting my wisdom teeth removed (this Friday) and those were the EXACT words that the man said to me when he told me I would need to take my lip and nose ring out while my wisdom teeth were being extracted.

I volunteered to get smaller, shorter jewelry or studs that weren't made of metal if it would make it easier. I also asked him if they would cause any complications and told him that while I understood I was reluctant to do so because they cost a lot of money and would likely close in the time it took for him to do the surgery. He said he could "work around it" but that I'd risk "getting gauze hung on them" and I had best remove them for my saftey. His tone was none-too-nice when he spoke to me, too. He was sort of like that before the issue with my lip ring, but as soon as he realized my mom and dad came to his office regularly, he was suddenly very polite. Figures.

Normally, I would have been fine with his request, but I just feel like he was a little rude about it. I unintentionally dug my heels in. It's a terrible knee-jerk reaction of mine to not budge an inch when I think someone is being sort of a jerk, but I'm having a hard time trying to pull myself out of it this time 'round.

My mom was kind of mean about it when I tried to talk to her, too. Then again, I guess I shouldn't expect more from her.

Ugh. So yeah. I'm looking forward to all this crap.

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Mother fucker

Jul. 2nd, 2009 | 11:45 am
mood: enraged enraged


Well, I was just fired from my job at the afterschool program I used to work at.

If I had been fired because I did a shitty job then ok, fine. I mean, I'd still be mad about it since losing your job sucks and all, but at least it'd be for for what I thought to be a fair reason.

Instead, I was fired on a lame technicality that's suddenly an issue after four years. The church that owns the building we used decided that someone can't work in any church program if they have a family memeber who is their superior. Obviously, because my mom is the director of the program I got the axe. No warning of a change in policy or anything  Here's a list of everything that's fucked up about the situation: 

1. Even though my mom is the director of the program, I don't report to her. The assistant director takes care of most of the issues involving employees, parents, and children. If there's something serious going on, it's sent to my mother THROUGH her. Not one of us. My mom spends her time doing paperwork, handling the accounts, and running the program. Most of the employees don't even see her during the day. So technically, my mom is "my boss' boss". Not mine.

2. The woman who runs the church summer camp in the school during June and July has her two sons working in it but the church says they're exempt since it's "just a camp".

3. So basically, this rule was pretty much invented for my mother and I since I'm the only person other person that has a parent as their superior.  I can't help but feel as if this rule was put in action out of spite for my mother. The higher-ups in the church have been at odds with my mother since she started running After School. They've been especially hostile towards her since they found black mold in our building. They told her not to tell the parents and she argued that if they found out through some other source that there'd be hell to pay, so it wasn't a good idea. Especially in the case of a child getting sick. So, after she fought with them over that, they've been less-than-kind to her. 

4. The After School technically isn't even part of the church, really. We just use their building and their buses. We don't get any money from them or any support. Yet, they still insisted that we obey their rules.

5. They told my mother that she was the one who had to fire me.

So yeah, I'm pissed.

My mom says there's a chance that the rule was decided by the head of the Methodist church, so all the other churches followed. I can't help but wonder: If the head of the Methodist church decided to jump off a bridge, would the guys who decided to fire me do it, too? 

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Blasphemy!

Jun. 18th, 2009 | 04:58 pm
mood: blah blah

Currently, I look like I'm transforming in to a leopard woman because from the shins down I'm speckled in black Rit fabric dye. Long story short: A parent attempted to be helpful (without my knowing!) and two pieces of my Lolita wardrobe got ruined as a result. I'm not going to go in to detail since I've let bygones be bygones, but it was especially worthy of gnashing my teeth since they were my two favorite pieces. My BtSSB ice cream dress and my drop-waisted tartan dress by Victorian Maiden. 

The ice cream dress was the first one to suffer from an unfortunate fate and since I was wearing the VM dress at the time I rushed to rescue it, it got caught in the crossfire. (I didn't notice this until later.) Both of them have patterns on them that turned in to a runny mess because they're not at all color fast.  Seriously. It looked like I took my ice cream dress to Magic Mountain and did Spin Art with it. 

I tried going to the dry cleaners to see what they could do, but they were no help. None whatsoever. So, I took it upon myself to spend several painstaking hours trying to fix the stains with a paint brush, baking soda and tonic water. The only change was there was now a funny, stale smell in the material. The damage wasn't much less noticeable. At least my mom made me a steller Gin and Tonic out of the remaining Schweppes.

I resigned myself to the fact that my two favorite Lolita items were pretty much jacked up beyond repair.  Mostly, I was upset because I'm usually very careful with my things and a freak accident some how managed to destroy two at once. At least my parents know now to always ask before they touch my things and that Lolita is dry-clean only. Still, the dresses were too damaged to be resold so I was pretty bummed over losing the money I spent on them.They were too messed up to wear, but I still loved them. I have a rather odd body type and finding Lolita clothes that flatter my figure is difficult. One of the reasons I adored both of them so much was because they looked nice on me.

Later, when I was downstairs doing the laundry, I spied a bottle of fabric dye in the corner and was struck with an idea.

Forgive me Lolitas, for I have sinned.

I know that the idea of "altering brand" is kind of taboo amongst the Lolita crowd, but I doubt I'm ever going to get rid of either dress even if I grow out of Lolita. Considering they were pretty much ruined beyond repair I doubted I'd be able to resell them, anyway. I still wanted to wear both of them so I figured that dying them black was a good option.

So yesterday, Scout and I bought a bunch of fabric dye and went to town in her kitchen. By the end of the evening it looked like I'd had an epic battle with an octopus since the floor as well as my person were splattered  in black ink. I'm probably going to hit them one more time with another round of dye, but as of now they're black with the slightest hint of their former patterns beneath them.

Lesson learned: Colorfast items are my new best friend.

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Dreaming of the Impossible...

Apr. 26th, 2009 | 03:55 pm

 

Wishlist under mah cut! )

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More strange encounters

Apr. 10th, 2009 | 04:49 pm

So...I'm actually kind of determined to start writing in here regularly.

Anyway. I'm not sure if it's because spring has sprung and everything starts mating at around this time or what, but for some reason today everyone wouldn't get off of my ass.

I think it was because the weather was kind of yucky so I wore "normal" clothes? I can't help but feel like I'm more approachable when I'm not wearing Lolita. People hardly ever speak to me when I'm dressed like a fluffy abomination, I've noticed. I mean, I get compliments and occasionally rude comments, but with the exception of a few isolated incidents (i.e. my last journal entry) I've never actually been hit on.

So on the rare occasions that I'm actually wearing normal clothes and some random guy tries to talk to me I'm always surprised. Supposedly, I'm sexy in a pair of skinny jeans, ratty shoes and a windbreaker? That's news to me.

It began as I was getting on the train to go to school this morning. I walked by a group of guys and one of them asked me "Damn white girl, where'd you learn how to walk?" I chuckled a little to myself because I thought it was a funny question and walked by them. They kept trying to beckon me back to them, but I was running late and I didn't really want to talk to someone who objectifies me anyway.

RANDOM ASIDE: That's one thing I've never understood. When a guy hoots and hollers at you or makes a lewd, nasty comment how the hell do they expect you to react? Am I supposed to be pleased that they're relating to me like that? Do they think that kind of behavior will get them anywhere?

Anyway. Back to my story. I arrived to my first class of the day, History. We were watching a video in that class when suddenly the guy to my right passes me a note. The two of us always made small chit-chat before the lecture started and I thought he was kind of nice, but now I'm not sure what to think of him. The note-passing began innocent enough. He asked me if I wanted to hang out after class. I told him that I had to go straight home but maybe we could hang out later. After that things got a bit...awkward. Here's a rough summary of what passed between us:

Him: You're sexy and you turn me on.
Me: I'm flattered, but I have a girlfriend and I've no interest in a romantic relationship with a male.
Him: I could break your back. I know you're good with your tongue and so am I.
Me: Heh. Sorry, but like I said I'm not interested in males and I've been with my girlfriend for a while.
Him: You can't make room for me?
Me: I'm afraid not. Like I said, I'm not attracted to males that way. I'd be happy to have you as a friend, though.
Him: What do you like in your men?
Me: I'm only interested in males as friends, remember?
Him: Ask your girlfriend about a threesome.
Me: I don't think she'd be in to that. Frankly, I'm not sure I would be either. I was basically raised as an only child so I've never really gotten the whole "sharing" thing down.


By then, class was over and I was more than ready to get out of that room. I hurried out of the building and cut through the park to get to Japanese, ignoring the screaming Jesus folk that seemed to be out in full form today on account of the fact that it was Good Friday. I got to the corner and got ready to cross when a man that must have been fifty years old said "Where ya goin' Little Red? Why don't you stand over here?" The 'Little Red' comment confused me more than the fact that a man that was old enough to be my father making a pass at me did. I had just fled from a random proposition for a three way from a nearly a complete stranger, so I was in a frame of mind where nothing surprised me. My brain caught on to the words 'Little Red' because well...I couldn't think why he called me that. Of course, a few moments later I realized it was because my windbreaker was a reddish color and it had a hood. So he was calling me Little Red Riding Hood? Sadly for him I don't tarry with wolves.

I was never happier to arrive to Japanese class after that. It was fun and Ito-sensei was chagrined that no one commented on his new haircut. I left the class room less than an hour later intent on minding my own business as I hurried home.

I rode the train with a man who stood too close and smelled like corned beef.

Otherwise, it was fine.

I got to the CVS where my mom agreed to pick me up. I was walking down the sidewalk, my destination in plain sight when a rusty, white truck ambled up to the curve. The window rolled down and a grubby man with a dirty face and a prickly beard leaned out. He licked his speckled lips. "Hey sweet thing." He smiled like a Hillbilly Jack-o-Lantern with rotten teeth.

WHAT IS IT WITH MEN AND THEIR ROTTEN TEETH HITTING ON ME?!

I showed my disapproval with an annoyed scowl, stomped my foot and jogged down to the corner of the sidewalk to catch the light. It had changed, giving me the right of way and a means of escape.

Thankfully, I was picked up and brought safely home without any more interruption from creepers.

Maybe I really am flypaper for freaks.

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Of Meetups and Lolicons

Apr. 6th, 2009 | 06:40 pm

I went to a Lolita Meetup at Piedmont Park on Saturday. I almost didn't make it, but I'm glad I did. It was a lot of fun. I got to hang out with the Agnes Lolis again and we had a picnic.

We also decided to have a meetup that involves a Twilight drinking game. ANDAND I met this really nice girl named Alma who gave me bad ass socks, a white chocolate bunny, and lipgloss for our gift exchange. I was like "But...I just got you some dark chocolate." I felt inadequate. XD

Then I hung out with Anastasia and Scout talked us in to going to a party her brother was throwing for "just an hour". (FYI we ended up staying until about three or four because Scout, our DD was kidnapped by her friends and force-fed alcohol.) Anastasia and I wore matching outfits and she let me borrow her awesome Betsey Johnson dress. It's strapless and has tons of ruffles of pink and purple lace.

Anyway, I ended up meeting this guy there...I forget his name, but he seemed alright to me at first. It was a little annoying that he kept interrupting me and he also had rotten teeth. I'm quite serious about the "rotten" bit. It looked like he had a slight case of meth mouth and I'm pretty sure that he didn't do meth.

Anyway, the first red flag went up when he said that he had been in prison when he got his "Asian" tattoo. The second and third flags came up when he told me he was "sure I had been chased by my fair share of guys and girls" and tried to recruit me for this campusing job. He still kept insisting that I gave him my contact information even though I told him multiple times that I was happily employed and didn't want another job.

Finally, the other shoe dropped while I was talking about Lolita with a fellow egl member who just happened to be there. He suddenly interjected and said something along the lines of "You're wearing Lolita now." Nicely, I told him I wasn't, but he still insisted. "Yes you are. You're totally wearing a dress that a five-year-old would wear."

He then proceeded to act as if he knew what he was talking about when I tried to point out the differences in the Lolita style a strapless Betsey Johnson dress that was fuschia and royal purple. I couldn't help but feel as if he was acting like he knew more than me because of the the way he kept insisting I was in Lolita despite my attempts to explain to him that I wasn't. I wouldn't call myself an expert when it comes to the fashion but I've been dressing in the style for two years so I think I'd know a thing or two. At least I'd know more than a dumpy, sketchy individual with a somewhat foul smell.

During his jumbled, poorly organized explanation telling me that I was in Lolita he said something about "liking the younger ladies", which since he was in his late twenties/early thirties I took to mean that he liked girls my age. Such a statement sort of went over my head because I was too busy trying to explain to him the difference in the materials used to make the two different garments.

"Here. Feel this." I had instructed, holding out the hem of my skirt. My intention was to explain the differences between raschel and cotton lace and the hem was the tamest place on my dress for him to touch. The length of the dress was long enough that I wasn't at all worried about exposing myself or anything. He reached out to touch the skirt and recoiled.

"Do you not realize what you're doing? You're asking a person who just admitted that they have a Lolita complex to touch you." I'm positive that I visably blanced once he made the distinction that he was not only talking about Lolita the fashion, but Lolita in the Nabokov sense. I then decided our exchange was over.

Anastasia, quite the gallant lady stepped in to defend my honor against the pervert with the increasingly alarming orthodontics and he began to make even less sense. I was only half listening, intent on pretending that Mr. Etch-a-Sketch was not a part of my reality. I still faded in and out of the conversation.

"I am bisexual kink." He proclaimed at one point when Anastasia tried to logically debunk an argument that sounded to me to be something along the lines of "It's okay for me/other people to lust after her because she's over the age of eighteen." At least, I'm pretty sure what he was trying to tell her. As I said, I didn't have on my best listening ears.

Anastasia then sobered up and drove us home. I left the party having not drunk enough of my rum to find such an ordeal amusing. My opinion on the whole thing had lightened a bit by the next afternoon after some extensive cuddle therapy and cake.

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Stuff...

Jun. 5th, 2008 | 04:56 pm
location: Home
mood: groggy groggy

Haha. Actually using my live journal for its intended purpose for once. I have to make a habit of writing in this thing more.

Anyway. Yesterday was quite hellish. It all began with being a crazy day at work. (I've been working at a week-long "Circus camp" that ends tomorrow.) First, a little boy threw up on the tire swing and had to be sent home. (Guess who got to take care of that child...)

After that, the same little girl pee'd herself twice. (Again, guess who got to take care of that.) Another boy had a meltdown tantrum of major proportions. But...these are all normal things that one comes to expect when working with children. The real capper on my day was Evan. Evan, the little boy who lives next door to me. Evan, the little antichrist who wakes up at 6 am almost every morning, is in a tree in the back yard by 6:30 and screaming loud enough to wake me up. Not just the normal, giddy squeals of a child who is having fun playing out doors, either. Blood-curdling screeches. Shrill, ear-piercing cries.

So. Yesterday, one of Evan's friends comes up to me and says "Evan stuck a Lego up his nose.".  Not phased and not at all surprised, I took Evan by the hand and told the women who were running the camp what his friend had told me. (The fact that there was a Lego lodged in his nose was confirmed by the fact that his voice was suddenly very, very nasal.) So, they call his mother; Ann. She comes flying down to the summer camp, white as a sheet and freaking out. This of course puts Evan on to hysterics all over again.

"I've got a treat for you." She crooned in her thick, Welsh accent. "Mummy's got a treat for you." She then realized that she didn't bring anything to bribe her son in to her vehicle with. So she turns to me and goes "You, yes you there, can you get him a popsicle?" While I was fighting the urge to curtly remind her we were neighbors and she KNEW MY NAME, one of my fellow employees came to their senses and got him a popsicle and a toy. (At his mother's request.) She the leaves her 1-year-old son Ellis with us. The fact that we are neither equipped or allowed by law not allowed to look after a boy his age must have slipped her mind...because her son had a LEGO LODGED IN HIS NOSE. She frantically told me to help her take him out to the car, and I must admit her voice was again pretty curt and rude.

Now, I understand that the fact that her son has something obstructing his ability to breathe through his nostrils was upsetting...but the boy was STILL able to breathe. One can't be screaming at the top of their lungs like that if they're being denied air. It wasn't like it was going to migrate up his nasal passage and lodge itself in his brain. I volunteer to stay with Ellis instead and keep him entertained until her husband gets there. 

Before she leaves, she says to me and my bosses: "Could you please watch the children more carefully and see to it that nothing like this happens again?" 

The response that flashed through my brain was: "Lady, we can't keep a close eye on all twenty-eight childrend all the time. Also, ten of children in this camp that are your son's age. In fact, there are several more that are even younger than he is. And thus far, ALL OF THEM have managed to avoid a trip to the emergancy room via shoving something where it doesn't belong. D'you think it's possible that maybe YOU'RE not doing your job properly rather than us?"

Of course, in the midst of all this, another parent comes in. (BIG, LONG BACKSTORY: This is a woman who on the first day of camp comes up to me and snapped "Where's Jackson?" (Jackson being her son.) I calmly told her that since it was the first day I didn't know all the children's names yet and I wasn't quite sure which one was her son, but I was pretty sure that a little boy with blonde hair who just asked me if he could go to the bathroom was Jackson. She took this to mean that I had no idea where her child was and freaked out. She went to look for him and SURPRISE, SURPRISE, he was in the bathroom.)

So, anyway. The same mother comes in and asks me the SAME question in the SAME TONE. She doesn't ask the assistant who was sitting by the door and monitoring who was coming in and out of the room. She asked me. The assistant who was in the middle of face-painting at least ten children and trying to keep a 1-year-old entertained. So I told her "I saw Jackson go outside with another employee and a group of children who wanted to play. Did you check out there?" So she goes out and doesn't see him and freaks out again. Of course, she didn't ask the other employee who was working out there where he was. She just saw that he wasn't out there and lost her shit. If she had ASKED him where Jackson was he would have told her that he was going to the bathroom.

And that was my day at work. Eager to unwind a bit after such a day, I decided to hang out with my friend Erica. We went and ate a lovely pasta dinner after being nearly run off the road by a psycho soccer dad and his two childen in a BMW. After that we went to Little Five, which is a small ecclectic pocket of shops. I was dressed in one of my favorite Lolita dresses. My BtSSB pink Paris Windows jumper skirt. Of course people are unused to seeing someone walking around who looks like a birthday cake. So I expected to get a lot of stares and perhaps a few mean words. I didn't expect to get attacked.

Attacked is too strong a word, truthfully, but harrassed is one that's too weak. It was somewhere inbetween the two? And the incident didn't occur because I was wearing Lolita, but that's certainly what began it. Dusk was rapidly approaching and Erica and I were making our exit because Little Five isn't a good area to be in at night. Of course, you can't walk ten feet in that area sometimes without someone asking you to buy something off them or if they can take your money in some way shape or form. SO, we were walking past a large group of males and one Joe Dirt-looking mother-fucker started cat-calling me. "Hey, Cinderella, looking for a prince?" 

I was a little annoyed, but again it was something I expected. Of course, after this his friend thinks it possible to try and sell his CD to us. We tried to tell him in every way possible that we were not interested, neither of us had heard of the "big hip-hop bands" that he did collaborations with, neither of us listened to the radio much, neither of us had any cash on us. He still wouldn't let up. He followed us a few feet and then stood in front of the two of us to block us from making it past him any more. He was still jabbering away a mile a minute. But honestly, I couldn't understand a word he was saying. It wasn't that he had a speech deformity or something of that nature...it just suddenly sounded like he was talking through a tunnel.

I had complained earlier in a store called Psycho Sisters (where I met a very nice girl who was also a fan of Lolita) of feeling a bit dizzy and light-headed. Of course, I didn't think that I could be dehydrated from spending about six hours out in the sun and the Atlanta humidity. I had felt fine the whole day and drank two glasses of water at dinner, so I didn't think there was a problem until I started feeling bad in the store.

 In any case, I don't quite remember what happened next while the hip-hop man was talking to us. The next thing I remember was that I was lying on the sidewalk and the Joe Dirt look-a-like was saying "Oh, she's an actress, she's an actress." indicating of course that I was faking. Erica is immensely protective of me and got a bit tactless.

"Fuck you. She wouldn't fake something like this." She hissed at him. Once the three gentlemen who had been harrassing us had realized that I was in fact sick they wanted to help. I remember hearing one of them ask if we needed a phone several times. Erica informed them that she had one and she was going to take me where I could lie down and get me some water. She also expressed that she was annoyed with the fact that despite their suddenly wanting to help me, a moment a go they were all laughing at me and then when I fainted they called me a faker.

Then the next thing I know, I'm being guided down the sidewalk and this grungy rat-looking guy is following us shouting and screaming. He's saying things like "You fucking cunt nigger bitch. People are trying to help. You don't pull that kind of shit you fucking bitch. Not on my streets. I run this place." My friend kept telling him to walk away, so he goes "What the fuck are you gonna do, huh? I run these streets. I better not see your black ass around here again or there's gonna be a problem." He's advancing on us and getting closer and closer while he's following us down the side walk.  He kept calling her a bitch. Repeatedly, as a matter of fact. More disturbingly, he made repeated thinly guised threats while asking "What are you gonna do?" As she told him to leave us alone. His hands were clenched in to fists. 

All the while, Erica is shaking like a leaf. Not because she's scared. Because she's angry and she's trying to control herself. See, this guy was actually shorter than Erica and maybe had thirty pounds on her, tops. What he didn't know about her is that Erica has been trained in three different types of martial arts and boxing since she was old enough to stand and throw a punch. Part of me almost wishes he had tried something. I could see the headlines now: "Diminuative black girl kicks snot out of coke fiend."

The morals of the story:

1.) Legos don't belong up your nose.
2.) Full-grown crackheads don't have the right to harrass you. No matter how you're dressed. 


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:/

Dec. 8th, 2007 | 11:00 am
mood: pissed off pissed off

I'm tired of people thinking it's alright to treat me like crap.

The end.  

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The "art" of driving.

Nov. 26th, 2007 | 09:45 pm
mood: cranky cranky

 Much to my chagrin, I today learned that there is little elegance in the act of driving.

Perhaps that's why I've been putting it off.
 

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